I am, admittedly, late to jumping on the James Deen bandwagon.
I discovered him quite by accident a few weeks ago and was hooked like a fish… and like so many other females before me. There’s something about this guy. He’s cute, but certainly not drop-dead gorgeous. A bit shorter than I like my men and definitely quite a bit younger than I like. And he’s a skinny little shit. His cock is gorgeous, but he’s not extremely hugely well-endowed. And he has an incredibly lickable little butthole. If you’ve read my blog, you know I enjoy all things anal and would love the chance to tongue his bum.
What drew me in, though, is the obvious fact that he really enjoys women. Likes women. Of all shapes and sizes, colors and varieties. I’ve seen videos of him fucking tiny little waifs and women that are bigger than me… and I’m a cow! Black, white, Asian… he likes them all. And I don’t mean “likes” like any normal hetero guy… he really enjoys a woman’s body and enjoys doing whatever it takes to get them off, whether it’s kissing, holding hands, whispering dirty sweet-nothings in their ears or smacking them in the face.
What? Smacking them in the face?
Yes, Mr. Deen has quite the Dom streak in him as well as the boy next door.
And this is where my conundrum starts to kick in. James Deen, through no fault of his own, has become a teenage girl’s wet dream. For me, it was Shaun Cassidy (shut up). For many girls today, it’s James. I’d venture a guess that for most of these teenagers, their first introduction to him was through one of his vanilla scenes. The ones where he’s seduced by his girlfriend’s mom or plays the innocent delivery man that is conned into fucking the sultry ingenue. Imagine their surprise when they click a link to one of his scenes for kink.com!
Now, I love me some kink. I’ve been there… I’ve experienced subspace and know what an exhilarating feeling it is. But I was in my mid 30s when I experienced it. I don’t know that I could have handled that when I was a teen, just learning about sex.
Teenage girls have low self-esteem. Being a teenage girl is hell on earth. It’s a miserable time. Hormones are all wonky, peer pressure… and teenage girls are just fucking monsters. Mean as shit.
It’s a self-defense mechanism, yes. We girls are so down on ouselves when we’re teens that the only way we can cope is to lash out at others. It’s terrible. I was bullied… and I bullied others. As an adult, I feel like shit about the way I treated one particular girl in high school. She didn’t deserve my wrath… and I didn’t deserve the wrath I received from other girls. It’s a vicious, evil cycle. I can’t imagine how hard it must be for girls today… Facebook, Twitter, texting. We know it’s driven more than one teen to suicide.
I wouldn’t trade places with them for anything.
The point to all this is that it would be very easy for girls, who feel lacking in every way anyway, to allow themselves to be treated like the girls in the kink.com videos that they see James acting in. As adults, we know what is actually happening in those videos. We get that in the BDSM world, the submissive is, in actuality, the one with ALL the power.
The submissive controls the action and can call a stop to it at anytime, in a safe, sane and consensual setting. But unless you’ve studied this world, how can you know this? A 16 year old girl and her 17 or 18 year old boyfriend aren’t going to know the rules. And even if they do read up on it, can their developing minds truly grasp the importance of the rules?
I wouldn’t have been able to. As a teenage girl experimenting with all things sexual, I didn’t understand that I was supposed to enjoy it as much as the boy did. I put up with anything and everything my early partners did and never uttered a word, even if I absolutely hated it. Calling stop to the action would have ended up branding me as a cold fish. And “prude” is just another label that no teenage girl wants to carry around.
So what’s to stop these girls from going from the cutesy James Deen porn to the rough James Deen porn and pulling that into their real lives and getting seriously hurt… physically AND emotionally? Have any of these kids read the contracts on kink.com? I doubt it.
And as a woman, that scares me to death for these kids.
A true Dom respects his sub above all else. And that is key. A true Dom knows when the scene ends. And that isn’t knowledge that most teenage boys have… Hell, a lot of adult men don’t get it, either.
I don’t want any girl to think that they deserve anything else than 100% respect from any man. That lack of self-esteem all teenage girls feel can easily stretch into their adulthood. And that is the road to living life going through one abusive relationship after another. In my work, I see this everyday. These kids have lived with abuse all their lives… it’s all they know and they repeat the cycle.
Breaking that cycle can be almost impossible.
Now, none of this is anything James Deen has asked for. He can’t control who watches his videos. He’s an adult acting in an adult industry. The internet makes his work accessible to anyone who wants to see it. He has no control over this so I’m not blaming him in any way.
I adore him… both in his role as goofy boy next door and his role as a Dominant. I want to hold hands with him and kiss and cuddle and whisper sweet dirty things to him. I also want him to tie me to a rack, attach some nipple clamps and spank me so hard I’m bruised for weeks. Depending on my mood, I want him to call me either “sweetie” or “cumslut”.
Because at 42, I understand from watching his work and reading his words, that in the end, he would be a gentleman and respect me as a sexual woman and I should expect no less.
Can these 16 year old girls make that same distinction between the fantasy of James Deen and the reality of the boys who just want to get in their pants?